The will of God.

I was going to tell you all about the false alarms that there have been for my soon to be niece who will now be a June baby. And I was going to tell you all about the dream I had last night in which I saved Spiderman as Peter Parker something like a dozen times. But then I went to church this morning.
Church was incredible.

One of our elders spoke. He talked about discipleship and what it means to be a disciple and why it's important and how to make them. And in all that, he talked about the will of God.
As I sit here at this desk and drink my vanilla black tea from a white porcelain teacup and write this to you, I am going to admit two things.
One. I cried in church today. Multiple times.
Two. I never thought I was right about my convictions about the will of God till today.
So often we as Christians compare the will of God to a door. The door is open, or the door is closed. It's simple. it's black and white. It's a cop-out. Because if we say that the will of God is the door that is continually shut in our face, and we never push back on it because of that, then we are saying that we never actually know the will of God. I think we know that is wrong, but I think we keep believing it. It's easy. It's not scary. It's safe. But it's wrong. I'm going to say that again.
It's wrong.
We like to say that God closes and opens the doors, but what if it's the devil that does that, and it's God who is building the house? Think about that for a second. Doors are in houses. We live in God's house. Maybe we're supposed to push on those doors. Maybe we're supposed to climb through the windows and hack holes in the walls and dig through the floor and discover staircases and new rooms and the attic. Maybe we already live in the will of God. Maybe we abide in it, and it's not that we need to discover it, but more that we need to navigate through it. Christians are so afraid of making the wrong decisions. The wrong choices. The thought even puts a knot in the pit of my stomach. I view failure and mistakes as sins. But I'm changing that. Because I need to get over my human complex that the will of God is elusive. I live in it. The will of God is right in front of me. It's right in front of you.
The will of God is the Word of God.
Don't make excuses. Stop making excuses. Don't use "closed doors" as a reason to avoid difficulties. Don't say that God needed you to be available, that God needed you somewhere else. Own up to your failures, and press on next time. Make mistakes. Walk through a door you didn't think you should have. Do hard things. Find tunnels and secret doors in the bookcases and build ladders and draw a blueprint of your house. Know the Bible. The will of God is not a secret. You already have it. You already know it. You already live in it.
Do not be afraid of the closed doors.
Find a way into the next room. Even if the devil is holding the door shut with his finger, or ten million demons, push. If it's the right direction, push. And you know the right direction. Do not doubt that. You live in the right direction. There's just hundreds of right doors. Sometimes it's easy, and sometimes it's hard, but push.
Please push.
The will of God is not some elusive thing that you can only find if you pray ten hours each night and read your Bible every morning and go to Church consistently and never, ever make a mistake.
The will of God is your house.
It's your home.
Live like you know that.