Princess not bride.

Dear Fleur.
So.
Mockingjay pins are $24. Die. And for my communications class, we have to break nonverbal norms.
I do not like to draw attention to myself. And that is what this assignment is all about. For example, yesterday I walked around the entire campus backwards. It made me late to some of my classes. And everyone stared.
Second example, on Tuesday I have to dress up. Like a princess. Then I have to go to all my classes and pretend like I do things like that all the time.

Last night I tried on Mandy's princess dress just to get a feel for it. I slipped it over my head. I zipped it up.
And I couldn't zip it up.
I have always had a swimmer's upper body. Broad shoulders. Arms that are easily toned. Long torso. Wide across the chest.
I would be such a great boy.
Unfortunately, I am a girl. And last night I was a girl trying to fit into a princess dress that is very necessary for my next assignment in speech class. I couldn't do it though. You should have seen me, sitting there with my head in my hands and tulle everywhere and thinking. I went back and forth.
I'll just find a different dress. I'll wear something else. What about project Clothesless? Would buying a dress break a rule? I should just not do it. It's going to be embarrassing. But the best things are always hardest. It's your assignment, you have to do it. Go to the thrift store tomorrow. Look through that pile of wedding dresses in the closet. You aren't fat. You should have been a swimmer. What if I had gone to the Olympics? I need another dress this poofy.
I was way out of my comfort zone last night.

I went on a two mile run this morning. Really fast. As fast as I could. I decided while I was running that today I will look for another dress. Not wallow in despair because of my shoulders and back. I will just find another dress.
I will wear something poofy.
I will do the assignment.
I will probably be embarrassed.
I will not dwell on the fact that I might have been a really good swimmer.
And,
I will not spend $24 on a Mockingjay pin no matter how much of a nerd I am.

"Life isn't fair. Anyone who tells you otherwise is selling something." But life shouldn't be spent inside your comfort zone. Not all the time.
Love from Bel.