"Everything changed the day she figured out there was exactly enough time for the important things in her life."

Dear Fleur.
There is no wind today, and it kind of makes me sad. I was hoping for wind. I don't know why. I just was.

I think that God has been teaching me the power of prayer.
This is going to sound kind of ironic, but I think that because
He hasn't exactly been answering my prayers.

O.
That got you? Am I right? You totally expected me to say that I think that because there is this huge impact on my life and God is answering all my prayers as I shoot them straight at him and it's like a chain of answered prayers one after the other.
Nope.
He hasn't answered many of them.
And at first I was stupid and fought back. I yelled at Him and told Him that this wasn't going to teach me anything at all.
Then it did. Teach me something I mean. I've learned that patience and peace walk hand in hand.
I ask for a lot of things of my Lord. And they're not selfish things either. I don't ask for a bajillion books and multiple watercolour drawing pads. I ask for good things.
Healing.
Joy.
Peace.
Safety.
Conviction.
Sometimes I am selfish and I ask for the wind. But mostly it's things like those. Good things. And God doesn't give me all of them. Only some. A portion. A very miniscule portion.
But it's powerful.
The fact that I can ask for any and all of that, is powerful.
And it blows my mind.

I've had so much time lately. It's been nice. To be able to wake up in the morning and do the dishes and bake a loaf of bread and paint and then read, so nice.
I haven't written in my books lately. Not in my novel at all. But I think I'll get it out today. I still need to make props for the library play though. We'll see.
But something I will be doing all day,
is praying.
I'm making a list.
It's exciting.

Love Bell.